Monday, February 2, 2015

What Friends

Alone again with these empty people
People no one knows but they know me
Friends no one ever accepted
People who come around when you least expect
My heart opens up to hear their words
Engulfed with their influence
Enraged by their freedom
A freedom no one wants
But one that everyone accepts
And until the day I accept them
I shall remain alone.....all alone

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Tomorrow's Promise

Today I smiled and you stared at my soul
Today I asked you to let go
Let go of your worry and fear
Only because I want you near
Next to me and embraced within my fire
Something that promises to take you higher
Higher than tomorrow's expectations and goals
Because it's time for us to become foes
One soul, one beat, one thought of a new heart
Together it's time to agree to never be apart

Another Soul

Into the darkness I push forward blinded and free
I take what I get because it's deep within me
Today I have embraced my torture and pain
Only to never endure it again
Playing these wicked games I am the snakes head
Afraid if all the consequences and being dead
Still I chance the pain and sorrow
Tomorrow I think I will borrow
Borrow the dedication it takes to be a better man
Better than what you say I can
But tomorrow will fill my soul
And if I'm lucky, will make me whole

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Save Me

Who's gonna help that strong man
Hes giving it all he can
The storms getting stronger and his backs bending
Hes fighting and every day feels its his actions hes defending
One motion causing multiple ripples in his life
Some days his tension is so thick you can cut it with a knife
He plows forward feeling like a broken tank
And like that bottle hes empty from what he drank
No cool-aid will bring him down but does he care
Into the future he has a curled brow glare
From the past he limps with very little clout
Or is he just suffering from another flare up of the gout
Strong enough to suffer in silence
Strong enough to suffer in violence our weakness. 

Wednesday, January 22, 2014


Today is a new day and my smiles are still lost
The sun shines again and yet I've got frowns filled with frost
Time passes me by and I suffer in a vacuum of regret
I'm forced to be polite and treat shitheads with respect
Thoughts go through my heart and questions of why I'm here
But answers are only guided by the end being near
At Night i toss and turn with nightmares of my mistakes
And there's no photographer there for retakes
Spilling into my soul is my tainted blood
And I'm drowning like a lost soul in a flood
Although I struggle, my head stays afloat
Churning to be successful even if I have no boat
One day my end will come
And for now I shall take days, one by one

Friday, November 15, 2013

Unanswered Questions

Inside the halls echoed silence
And the outcome was juvenile violence

A moment in time that no one can take back
And with all the emotions no one knows how to react

Two futures changed in a few seconds of their lives
Those halls now only echo memories and cries

We ask difficult questions with no answers we can accept
Our town left soggy with tears of sorrow and regret

No matter what people say or do the scene was played out and served
Both boys got nothing each one diserved

Families heartbroken and a city divided
Adults blinded to the fact that to get through this we must be united

Ribbons and memorials will be spread to help some cope
But others will continue to react as if they are at the end of their rope

We must protect our children and help them when we can
However, sometimes higher powers have a different plan

Monday, November 11, 2013

Frustration in Time

Sometimes you have to look in the mirror and wonder what you really are looking at.  Are you staring at the person you have made, the person society has made, or the person you are destined to be.  Ive tried to not stare in the mirror basically to avoid any reflection of what I thought Ive seen.  As the image gets older and the lines more prominent I wonder...who am I.  Am I a strong man, a simple man, a shy man, a lonely man, a loving man, an arrogant man, a stupid man, an educated man, a weak man, or just not the right man.  I'm sure at times I can say yes or no to every one of those.   Today I sit a broken man. A man that has been pushed to his limit and has heard the snap of his soul.  I wonder why I'm here, what am I supposed to be doing here, am I doing the right thing, or am I frustrated with the way things are because its ME who's doing it all wrong. Am I supposed to be rude like others, am I supposed to drive as if there are no laws or signs, am I to treat others places as if they are trash dumps? I find myself frustrated a lot with all the situations I get put into due to the inconsideration of others.  My biggest problem I seem to have lately is my two boys.  They are going to grow up on a society that is over sensitive, rude, and expect everything at no or little cost.  A society of the quick dollar at anyone's expense.  How do I help them become kind, loving, considerate, productive young men in society? Shelter them? Force them? or just guide them with love and hope they make the right decisions? All in all I see a society that has lost the drive it to be polite to now just becoming a society of get out of my way or I will run you over.  I watched a move once about all the things Ive been talking about and as the American flag flew at the end it had one word flash across the screen.............